Over the hump

I seem to be in a running "slump" the past few weeks. Well, it's been the past couple months actually. After I ran the Cowtown, I took two weeks off to recuperate, because that's what the pros say to do. I don't think they meant that for people who ran it as slowly as I did. I pushed my endurance, sure, but I didn't physically over-extend myself. So, I don't think my body needed two weeks of recovery time. Ever since the two-week break I have had a really hard time pushing my body to go more than a couple miles. I'll catch myself stopping to walk so early in my run, and after that happens, forget it. I mentally hang up the phone and decide that I'm not having a good running day and that's that.

Lately, I've been trying to get my parents to go to the park with me because I want to help them get in shape as much as I can. The down side is that I feel bad for making them wait if Mom is finished with her walk and I still want to run for 30 more minutes, or if I lap her and I'll want to stop and take a little break and talk to her and catch my breath - and there goes my run. There I go again, hanging it up and saying to myself, "I stopped running. Game over. Today is gonna be a 'short run' day."

So, I have to figure out a way to self-motivate and get my tail in gear to get over this hump and back to my best running self!

The Waiting Game

I feel like my life has been spent waiting on other people for a long time now. Waiting to hear back from a job, waiting on someone to provide some real support instead of the usual "be warmed and fed" kind, waiting on an unemployment check, waiting to find out what God has planned for me, waiting to find out if someone thinks my time has any value, waiting to finish school, waiting for my phone to ring, waiting, waiting, waiting...

I don't want to have a "Debbie Downer" blog, so I've been trying to keep it as positive as I can, but ya know what? I'm tired of waiting. I just want to put that out there. I am ready for something in my life to change and yet I feel 100% completely powerless to change it. I am at a loss. I have no idea what to do - I've applied for every job I thought I was capable to do, and plenty of jobs that I'm not. Either way, you can see the success rate of actually getting those jobs. I applied at a fast food restaurant the other day and when I gave the manager my application, he did one of those, "I'll look this over and give you a call" things with the tone of voice that told me he would not be calling me. What is the deal? So, now I'm just waiting on an answer. Don't know who it will be from or what the answer will be, but I'm ready for it.